The sun seemed to smile so seductive this morning, I stretched in bed and finally got up to look thru the window......
So amazing the pool glittered in the purest form of Aqua.
A few people were out already lounging by the pool, looked at my bedside clock 10.47am........
Eyes wide open, stared at the clock again waoh! did not know I slept in that late musta been tired........
Last night flashes came into my head Julio in my room! gosh a part of me wants this crazy feeling then.......
Another part of me is not sure she is ready, but well we'll see how the days go but i am certain of one thing
Julio is an eye candy Hot damn!!!
Sat back in bed and just gazed out at nature's glow, my thots wandered and then this pain crept back in!!!
NICK........I cant just believe i wasted my time, my heart for nothing??? memories flooded just as the tears formed in my eyes why would this happen to me again? dont i deserve to be loved, or am i doing something wrong? I thot of every plausible reason, Am not pretty enough, Maybe i am not as smart, I am not sociable, or maybe i am not the fantasy he wants in the bedroom?
I hurt and I have tried to numb it these past few days but it comes and engulfs me like waves never wanting to let go till I am spent from crying!!! I walked to the bathroom, opened the cabinet and tried to wash my face, staring right back at me thru the mirror was a shadow of myself, my hair was all tangled, eyes swollen and the life was gone in my face.........
I bent to wash my face, had some paste in my mouth and for the life of me I am sure i did not hear a knock on my door! Its too early and if its the cleaners give me a break I am not even out of the room yet!
I brushed my hair, cleaned my face, and decided to see who was at the door, Hello and i saw no one, awwh hell no i cant do this again, i am not hallucinating, i am not imagining things, closing the door i see a tiny envelope on the floor, I picked it up oh! you should have just slipped it right underneath the door i thought to myself.........
Laila was written at the back of the envelope... I opened it and its an invitation to a penthouse private dinner? DINNER? i said this word like 4 times! this has to be a joke, this is too early in the morning for this, Julio needs not to play with my emotions like this, I am so vulnerable and not even sure I am thinking straight yet, I was imagining the night alone with him!
I have to call Sean I thought, then maybe not maybe I need to just go with how my head feels right now and pay no attention to my heart...........
LAILA snap out of it----to be continued
Saturday, November 6, 2010
IT'S HAPPENING OR NOT????
Ok, there was no way I made a constructive word in this situation..
Julio, Eerm hi, do u need something? R u lost? staring at one
another Laila my shoes he said, i stared down and I had
noticed as soon as I saw those patent shoes Iclosed the door
as hard as I could, the blood must have drained from his
feet......I am so sorry that was just reflex i said, Its ok guess
one has to be security conscious but c'mon in a hotel like this?
give us some credit missy..........
I watched him talk and wondered how we were in the middle
of my suite Guess i had opened the door wider
and he stepped right in, Goodness!!!!
What do i do? heart thumping, whats going on here, why is
he in my ROOM??
He looked around and said nyce, cozy and relaxing ready to
turn in for the night he asked? Ok I was getting miffed what's
this some kinda joke? Ok Julio I have had a real nyce day and
just thot taking a shower and jumping right in bed would be
a good idea till u showed up, I musta had an attitude I
thought......I am sorry did not mean to intrude, I looked
around for u downstairs and u were gone.
I just looked up your floor and room and wanted to apologize
for leaving you alone.........
I must really get on your nerves, and I am real sorry for
assuming it was ok to follow you to your room......
He had said all these and turned to leave, when I called him
back Julio...................
I am sorry, I just have a lot on my mind and was not prepared
to meet with any conversation especially tonight. Its ok
Laila I certainly understand not much of a stalker either,
He chuckled, just had to make sure you were fine as a guest
as well as a friend?? raised eyebrows
I am grateful Julio and thanks for helping me with the key
card, I am sure we would see soon........
Good night he said, and as he reached for the door he asked
when do u leave laila? uhmmm not sure I intend to spend 2-3
weeks though but might change hotels for scenery.......
Spend your time here, as he said that, there was silence
between us as he looked at me........
Ill think about it i said, he smiled and said Goodnyt,
The door closed and the room spinned out of control for a
few mins, I felt dizzy and walked to the bed sat down head in
my hand asking What just happened???
I could smell his cologne all over the room, I sprawled into
bed closing my eyes and imagining.........
Its official I have the hots for Julio......Not even one week into
my stay O LAWD!!!!!
Off to shower and like a little kid I felt all bubbly
JULIO/CANCUN..................
LAILA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Julio, Eerm hi, do u need something? R u lost? staring at one
another Laila my shoes he said, i stared down and I had
noticed as soon as I saw those patent shoes Iclosed the door
as hard as I could, the blood must have drained from his
feet......I am so sorry that was just reflex i said, Its ok guess
one has to be security conscious but c'mon in a hotel like this?
give us some credit missy..........
I watched him talk and wondered how we were in the middle
of my suite Guess i had opened the door wider
and he stepped right in, Goodness!!!!
What do i do? heart thumping, whats going on here, why is
he in my ROOM??
He looked around and said nyce, cozy and relaxing ready to
turn in for the night he asked? Ok I was getting miffed what's
this some kinda joke? Ok Julio I have had a real nyce day and
just thot taking a shower and jumping right in bed would be
a good idea till u showed up, I musta had an attitude I
thought......I am sorry did not mean to intrude, I looked
around for u downstairs and u were gone.
I just looked up your floor and room and wanted to apologize
for leaving you alone.........
I must really get on your nerves, and I am real sorry for
assuming it was ok to follow you to your room......
He had said all these and turned to leave, when I called him
back Julio...................
I am sorry, I just have a lot on my mind and was not prepared
to meet with any conversation especially tonight. Its ok
Laila I certainly understand not much of a stalker either,
He chuckled, just had to make sure you were fine as a guest
as well as a friend?? raised eyebrows
I am grateful Julio and thanks for helping me with the key
card, I am sure we would see soon........
Good night he said, and as he reached for the door he asked
when do u leave laila? uhmmm not sure I intend to spend 2-3
weeks though but might change hotels for scenery.......
Spend your time here, as he said that, there was silence
between us as he looked at me........
Ill think about it i said, he smiled and said Goodnyt,
The door closed and the room spinned out of control for a
few mins, I felt dizzy and walked to the bed sat down head in
my hand asking What just happened???
I could smell his cologne all over the room, I sprawled into
bed closing my eyes and imagining.........
Its official I have the hots for Julio......Not even one week into
my stay O LAWD!!!!!
Off to shower and like a little kid I felt all bubbly
JULIO/CANCUN..................
LAILA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CONVERSATION
Hi all i heard my lips to say, Julio was a dashing piece of candy if i must say...........
U going somewhere? he asked, and from the look on his face,...............
I could tell my mode of dressing was no match to the guests in the lobby or to.....
Julio's who wore a dark suit and crisp white shirt, his cologne was musk hmmmm.......
I keep fascinating about these beautiful creatures called Men, Guys, Boys or Males..........
I drew back to reality as i was supposed to have answered the question I guess...........
I just got back from the pool, was heading upstairs and realized my Keycard de-magnetized.........
I was just heading to the lobby to have it changed, oh! he said we can go together if you dont mind?
I was not sure what the reply should have been, but i kept looking at him, .....................
I guess he read my confusion, he smiled I know most of the staff laila..................
That being said I accepted the offer and we walked across the lobby............
As we walked , i cld feel eyes tear through my skin and muffled whispers..........
I did not need this attention I thought to myself, but i needed to get in my room.........
We approached the desk, Senor Julio the gentleman behind the desk greeted..........
He nodded at me, and soon got engaged in a conversation with Julio............
Whatever they said i had no clue, it sounded real lovely, wish i understood spanish.........
On the gentleman's badge was Jorge (Horhe), ok now i was a bit curious..............
I had to ask why do they pronounce with H and spell with a J..........
Its amazing how diverse the world is, how custom and tradition determine the pple
Lost in my thoughts i had not heard Julio call my name.Laila!!..................
U seem to be lost in thoughts are u ok? he asked, I am gr8 thank you so much ............
He had asked Jorge to get me a new key card, while we were waiting on Jorge.................
A lady walked up to us, clad in a lovely satin dress with a body that graced it well............
Rosario, Julio called at her both smiling they hugged and cheeked one another...........
As they chatted, playing catch up, i guess Julio was lost in his conversation...........
He had totally forgotten me, cuz Ms. Rosy has taken him to a couple of other guests..........
As they laughed and met more people, guess their class of friends.............
Jorge gave me the Key card and i slipped thru the lobby waiting on the elevator to open..........
I almost cursed under my breathe, hurry plz let me just get into the elevator and then my room..........
Finally it opened , without anyone noticing i slipped in and was able to breathe phew!
I got to my door, took out the key card and placed it against the buzzer! yep the green light!!
Room service had come to tidy my room, it was cozy and the perfect night to be lost in sleep!
I had to take a shower, so getting out of my pool attire i hear a knock, strange i thought......
No one knew me in this hotel, besides other than room service ..............................
It was about 9pm , i was feeling lazy and tired , i dragged myself to the Door and opened..........
Empty, the next suite stared at me, Oh! well i thot maybe it was the next room............
Just as i was about to shut the door and turn in for the night, these patent black shoes.........
No way it cannot be who i think it is, i looked up and there he was JULIO!!!!!
U going somewhere? he asked, and from the look on his face,...............
I could tell my mode of dressing was no match to the guests in the lobby or to.....
Julio's who wore a dark suit and crisp white shirt, his cologne was musk hmmmm.......
I keep fascinating about these beautiful creatures called Men, Guys, Boys or Males..........
I drew back to reality as i was supposed to have answered the question I guess...........
I just got back from the pool, was heading upstairs and realized my Keycard de-magnetized.........
I was just heading to the lobby to have it changed, oh! he said we can go together if you dont mind?
I was not sure what the reply should have been, but i kept looking at him, .....................
I guess he read my confusion, he smiled I know most of the staff laila..................
That being said I accepted the offer and we walked across the lobby............
As we walked , i cld feel eyes tear through my skin and muffled whispers..........
I did not need this attention I thought to myself, but i needed to get in my room.........
We approached the desk, Senor Julio the gentleman behind the desk greeted..........
He nodded at me, and soon got engaged in a conversation with Julio............
Whatever they said i had no clue, it sounded real lovely, wish i understood spanish.........
On the gentleman's badge was Jorge (Horhe), ok now i was a bit curious..............
I had to ask why do they pronounce with H and spell with a J..........
Its amazing how diverse the world is, how custom and tradition determine the pple
Lost in my thoughts i had not heard Julio call my name.Laila!!..................
U seem to be lost in thoughts are u ok? he asked, I am gr8 thank you so much ............
He had asked Jorge to get me a new key card, while we were waiting on Jorge.................
A lady walked up to us, clad in a lovely satin dress with a body that graced it well............
Rosario, Julio called at her both smiling they hugged and cheeked one another...........
As they chatted, playing catch up, i guess Julio was lost in his conversation...........
He had totally forgotten me, cuz Ms. Rosy has taken him to a couple of other guests..........
As they laughed and met more people, guess their class of friends.............
Jorge gave me the Key card and i slipped thru the lobby waiting on the elevator to open..........
I almost cursed under my breathe, hurry plz let me just get into the elevator and then my room..........
Finally it opened , without anyone noticing i slipped in and was able to breathe phew!
I got to my door, took out the key card and placed it against the buzzer! yep the green light!!
Room service had come to tidy my room, it was cozy and the perfect night to be lost in sleep!
I had to take a shower, so getting out of my pool attire i hear a knock, strange i thought......
No one knew me in this hotel, besides other than room service ..............................
It was about 9pm , i was feeling lazy and tired , i dragged myself to the Door and opened..........
Empty, the next suite stared at me, Oh! well i thot maybe it was the next room............
Just as i was about to shut the door and turn in for the night, these patent black shoes.........
No way it cannot be who i think it is, i looked up and there he was JULIO!!!!!
SURPRISE! SURPRISE!
It was about 6 in the evening when i finally decided to retire to my suite....
Everyone who had been there most of the day had gone back into the hotel,
While the night lovers were creeping out, as i walked past the bar hmmmmm,
I smiled and took a seat while Rodriguez poured me sum punch mix,
He was a real charming fellow and since i was in no hurry to go meet anyone
We decided i co-bar with him, we giggled and he told me a little bit about himself
How long he had worked for the hotel, his age and quite shocking he was 45 and looked 25
Looking closer at him, i could spot the grays but yum he took good care of himself,
I immediately felt like i found a big brother, as we talked about everything............
From cultures, beliefs, politics, religion, the hotel and its guest then.....
RELATIONSHIP!! that hit a nerve and he must av noticed as he decided to drop it....
Then again what the heck i thought, i told him about Nick and how hurt i felt
He just laughed and said U av come to the right spot.................
U BETTER LIVE MAMI he said! opportunities come once in a lifetime
You are in Cancun, u cant leave without a story of urs, and i mean crazy/wild fun!
Waoh! so i guess i should really av fun then, i decided to ask about Julio!!!
Rod, uhmm mami he said, would you happen to know a Mr. Julio in this hotel??
Mami, too many Senors come in here, so i would not know who exactly this Julio is
A damp in my excitement, ok Rod thanks a lot, i need to go back to my room..........
Mami he said, u never told me your name?? I am sorry i smiled Laila is my name
He said Cancun needs LALA, mami dont be sad have fun and enjoy....
Thanks i said, and then the light of my night flickered on........
Rod called me back and asked.... this Julio you are looking for wont happen to be,
The guy i saw you with at the other side of the pool, Oh Lawd! we both smiled....
So he knew , Sir Julio is an important guest at the hotel he said.....
Why is that i asked?? He is the nephew to the owner of the Hotel..........
I was shell shocked eeerm u mean, Rod smiled and said Yes same one!
Ok now i had to sit down, i regretted my feisty behavior earlier towards him!
Rodriguez assured me, he was a calm spirited person,Unassuming & Lots of charm! The charm part definitely..............
After the chronicle of the family lineage of Julio....by Rodriguez
I called it an Evening and told Rod ill see him another time.
All he had told me kept twirling in my head, i got into the elevator and hit 5
My room was on the 5th floor, with a sigh i got out of the elevator......
Trying to get my key card from my Ipod pouch......
I got the card out and tried unlocking my door, it would not open
I tried this about four times and realized it must be de magnetized
Great, how stupid could i have been, now i have to go to the lobby......
Not in the mood for a crowd right now, reluctantly i headed down the lobby
Back in the elevator, i hit the L button and waited.........
The Elevator stopped and opened just as i was about to step out
Right in front of me stepping into the elevator was him................
He smiled and said we meet again Ms.???????
I was too floored i almost tripped, and all i heard my lips say was Llllllaila
The guy i met at the pool was far from this.......
I would have to take a moment to gather my thoughts......
JULIO~~~~~
Everyone who had been there most of the day had gone back into the hotel,
While the night lovers were creeping out, as i walked past the bar hmmmmm,
I smiled and took a seat while Rodriguez poured me sum punch mix,
He was a real charming fellow and since i was in no hurry to go meet anyone
We decided i co-bar with him, we giggled and he told me a little bit about himself
How long he had worked for the hotel, his age and quite shocking he was 45 and looked 25
Looking closer at him, i could spot the grays but yum he took good care of himself,
I immediately felt like i found a big brother, as we talked about everything............
From cultures, beliefs, politics, religion, the hotel and its guest then.....
RELATIONSHIP!! that hit a nerve and he must av noticed as he decided to drop it....
Then again what the heck i thought, i told him about Nick and how hurt i felt
He just laughed and said U av come to the right spot.................
U BETTER LIVE MAMI he said! opportunities come once in a lifetime
You are in Cancun, u cant leave without a story of urs, and i mean crazy/wild fun!
Waoh! so i guess i should really av fun then, i decided to ask about Julio!!!
Rod, uhmm mami he said, would you happen to know a Mr. Julio in this hotel??
Mami, too many Senors come in here, so i would not know who exactly this Julio is
A damp in my excitement, ok Rod thanks a lot, i need to go back to my room..........
Mami he said, u never told me your name?? I am sorry i smiled Laila is my name
He said Cancun needs LALA, mami dont be sad have fun and enjoy....
Thanks i said, and then the light of my night flickered on........
Rod called me back and asked.... this Julio you are looking for wont happen to be,
The guy i saw you with at the other side of the pool, Oh Lawd! we both smiled....
So he knew , Sir Julio is an important guest at the hotel he said.....
Why is that i asked?? He is the nephew to the owner of the Hotel..........
I was shell shocked eeerm u mean, Rod smiled and said Yes same one!
Ok now i had to sit down, i regretted my feisty behavior earlier towards him!
Rodriguez assured me, he was a calm spirited person,Unassuming & Lots of charm! The charm part definitely..............
After the chronicle of the family lineage of Julio....by Rodriguez
I called it an Evening and told Rod ill see him another time.
All he had told me kept twirling in my head, i got into the elevator and hit 5
My room was on the 5th floor, with a sigh i got out of the elevator......
Trying to get my key card from my Ipod pouch......
I got the card out and tried unlocking my door, it would not open
I tried this about four times and realized it must be de magnetized
Great, how stupid could i have been, now i have to go to the lobby......
Not in the mood for a crowd right now, reluctantly i headed down the lobby
Back in the elevator, i hit the L button and waited.........
The Elevator stopped and opened just as i was about to step out
Right in front of me stepping into the elevator was him................
He smiled and said we meet again Ms.???????
I was too floored i almost tripped, and all i heard my lips say was Llllllaila
The guy i met at the pool was far from this.......
I would have to take a moment to gather my thoughts......
JULIO~~~~~
CANCUN DAY 3
So i wake up the next morning, a lil better than the last two days.....
Gosh! is this going to go away anytime soon? then i thought to myself
Laila... U control how you want to feel about this break up, be happy, be sad or
Learn to wake up everyday understanding u are no SUPERWOMAN.....
Ull hurt, this wld hurt but gain ur strength and learn ur lesson...
Ok, i heard me say and off my bed i got into the shower with the crazy idea of FUN!
I looked outside my hotel room window and the pool looked real attractive & inviting....
The sun was out, so i decided to go down and get a nice spot under a cabana & listen to music
I dressed up in shorts and a bikini top under a tank, took my sunscreen lotion, Ipod & Shades...
Had my hair in a tail and off i went to what i tagged a good start to fun................
The pool was nicer from the ground view, the pool bar had sum nice mixers in view as well!
Not bad i thought instead of being holed up in my room and the bar man hmmmm......
All i can say was ripped, buffed and cute, some Havana top he had on with buttons all popped...
Wow, what have i being doing up in my room i thought?? now i missed my girl Cece
Cece & I love to swim in the deep end of the ocean of our adventurous mind.......
My girl, not seen her in months she traveled home to go see her folks, wld be back next month
A crazy thought had crossed my mind hmmmmmm
I was thinking Cece & Sean 2geda...(EXPLOSIVE MINDS)
Never told dem about it but been noticing sum sparks i am about to ignite (they'll kill me).
So as my mind wandered back to my friends and d nice times we had and how good it felt.....
Nick comes up again and i just blanked out! this hurts so bad not cuz i still love him
Just cuz i should av seen it coming......oh well!!!
I spot this lovely cabana at the far right of the pool, strategic & lovely spot .....
I decided to go to the bar order a Pina Colada from Rodriguez,
Thats the name of the bar man, nice and charming he was with all of us
He was such a hottie and the way he rolled his tongue pronouncing his name Rrrrodriguez......
Oh goody, I am in Cancun and i cld tell my Alter - Ego was taking over wiccccked lol......
I get to my lovely spot under a Cabana, ready to sprawl and then a tap on my shoulders???
Hi, hello i said to a guy i had not spotted in the pool area, Can i help you?? I asked
Yes u can , eerm this is my Spot, ok the first thing that came to mind was HELL NO....
Ur spot i asked, this is not a queue of some sort, i did not meet anything indicating it was taken
I am truly sorry but as u can see i was already trying to relax and my things are all over......
In my head i thought seriously?? In a hotel, at the pool u r debating over a CABANA dude???
He said, i just left to get a drink and i av been here all day, at this point i was loosing my cool
It's ok he said, u can stay there i just need to grab my magazine under the head rest..........
Dang! he was right, he got out a GQ mag and turned to leave, Mr.??? i said,
I am sorry, this is my first time at the pool did not knw you were here or meant any chaos
Julio is my name, and its fine i just had to get my magazine besides......
I would have left the Spot for u if u opted to leave, he smiled and walked away
Ok this whole time we were debating on the said spot i did not look at his anatomy
As he walked away, i realized standing before me 5 secs ago was ....................
A tall shirtless male anatomy, well worked out and cut V shape in shorts!!
Ok how important was this Cabana i thought to myself how could i av missed all of that???
I laid down and plugged my earphones to my ears, the rear view of Julio flashed back....
Hmm! not bad but he did not seem intrigued about me so... ill let this slip,
Smiling i drifted into my Music and enjoyed the splash of water, the Sun & Shade!!!
Cancun might have its Surprise for me i thought.....Am i ready just yet?
Julio (Pronounced HULIO) lets play!!
Gosh! is this going to go away anytime soon? then i thought to myself
Laila... U control how you want to feel about this break up, be happy, be sad or
Learn to wake up everyday understanding u are no SUPERWOMAN.....
Ull hurt, this wld hurt but gain ur strength and learn ur lesson...
Ok, i heard me say and off my bed i got into the shower with the crazy idea of FUN!
I looked outside my hotel room window and the pool looked real attractive & inviting....
The sun was out, so i decided to go down and get a nice spot under a cabana & listen to music
I dressed up in shorts and a bikini top under a tank, took my sunscreen lotion, Ipod & Shades...
Had my hair in a tail and off i went to what i tagged a good start to fun................
The pool was nicer from the ground view, the pool bar had sum nice mixers in view as well!
Not bad i thought instead of being holed up in my room and the bar man hmmmm......
All i can say was ripped, buffed and cute, some Havana top he had on with buttons all popped...
Wow, what have i being doing up in my room i thought?? now i missed my girl Cece
Cece & I love to swim in the deep end of the ocean of our adventurous mind.......
My girl, not seen her in months she traveled home to go see her folks, wld be back next month
A crazy thought had crossed my mind hmmmmmm
I was thinking Cece & Sean 2geda...(EXPLOSIVE MINDS)
Never told dem about it but been noticing sum sparks i am about to ignite (they'll kill me).
So as my mind wandered back to my friends and d nice times we had and how good it felt.....
Nick comes up again and i just blanked out! this hurts so bad not cuz i still love him
Just cuz i should av seen it coming......oh well!!!
I spot this lovely cabana at the far right of the pool, strategic & lovely spot .....
I decided to go to the bar order a Pina Colada from Rodriguez,
Thats the name of the bar man, nice and charming he was with all of us
He was such a hottie and the way he rolled his tongue pronouncing his name Rrrrodriguez......
Oh goody, I am in Cancun and i cld tell my Alter - Ego was taking over wiccccked lol......
I get to my lovely spot under a Cabana, ready to sprawl and then a tap on my shoulders???
Hi, hello i said to a guy i had not spotted in the pool area, Can i help you?? I asked
Yes u can , eerm this is my Spot, ok the first thing that came to mind was HELL NO....
Ur spot i asked, this is not a queue of some sort, i did not meet anything indicating it was taken
I am truly sorry but as u can see i was already trying to relax and my things are all over......
In my head i thought seriously?? In a hotel, at the pool u r debating over a CABANA dude???
He said, i just left to get a drink and i av been here all day, at this point i was loosing my cool
It's ok he said, u can stay there i just need to grab my magazine under the head rest..........
Dang! he was right, he got out a GQ mag and turned to leave, Mr.??? i said,
I am sorry, this is my first time at the pool did not knw you were here or meant any chaos
Julio is my name, and its fine i just had to get my magazine besides......
I would have left the Spot for u if u opted to leave, he smiled and walked away
Ok this whole time we were debating on the said spot i did not look at his anatomy
As he walked away, i realized standing before me 5 secs ago was ....................
A tall shirtless male anatomy, well worked out and cut V shape in shorts!!
Ok how important was this Cabana i thought to myself how could i av missed all of that???
I laid down and plugged my earphones to my ears, the rear view of Julio flashed back....
Hmm! not bad but he did not seem intrigued about me so... ill let this slip,
Smiling i drifted into my Music and enjoyed the splash of water, the Sun & Shade!!!
Cancun might have its Surprise for me i thought.....Am i ready just yet?
Julio (Pronounced HULIO) lets play!!
CANCUN
I turned and stared at the Drapes, nice beige i thought....
Morning after my arrival to Cancun, after my fountain of tears last night
I woke up with a headache, had to go look for some Aspirin
I felt like a bad hungover took over me, unfortunately it was not so..................
Anyways i thought to myself 3 weeks of a holiday with no one? what was i thinking
Maybe i rushed this decision, maybe i should have just stayed back and isolate myself
Least, i would still see familiar faces ..........
Then my mind wandered to Nick.. Bastard i thought, i hate him, i could kill him,
I heard my self and thought, U r way to classy for this, let it go and GROW!!!!
Ok... i said, as much as it hurt, ill try and have fun but how in this state?
I decided i was going to call my best friend Sean, we have been friends for ten years now
That's my conscience right there, Sean tells me as it is i av been thru it all with him.....
He is the definition of *Wounds from a Friend r better than kisses from an Enemy*
I knew he was worried, i had told him about the break up and left without any call......
Hello! hi Sean its me , OMG he said where have you been, U had me all worried,
Freaking out, wondering what you could av done to yourself...........
Typical Sean, i had to stop him Sean, I am ok i had to leave town
I am in Cancun, Are u crazy?? he asked, I chuckled NO i had to get away....
Fine he said,who are u with, where r you staying calm down Sean, jeeez!!!
So we went over the whole ordeal and how i got a ticket for Cancun
I decided to come spend my Vac time here away from everyone trying to see if il break...
I am sorry he said, i wish i cld kill that bastard, i cant believe this is happening again
U deserve better babes, this guys just keep hurting u and i am scared of what its doing to U!
My Sean! he makes me feel like a million bucks, even when i dont feel like a penny
We tease a lot saying maybe we should just hook up, but we know it wld ruin what we had....
So we left it in the sacred hands of our friendship, he cared too much about me,
I did likewise and thats why we have been thru it all to be who and where we are NOW!
I just called to let you know ill be fine Sean, and just want to relax and try and have fun.....
Heard its best to just go all out and have fun in times like this, we both laughed
But he knew me too well to knw my heart was bleeding as his was tearing up for me!
I know u are strong he said and i am sure ull make the best of this trip of urs,
Ill try i said and ill definitely call you when i find a hottie i teased............
Laila he said dont do anything crazy cuz i know you..............
I wont I said, but we both know that was the antidote for my heart right now
Crazy in Cancun..............
To be continued
Morning after my arrival to Cancun, after my fountain of tears last night
I woke up with a headache, had to go look for some Aspirin
I felt like a bad hungover took over me, unfortunately it was not so..................
Anyways i thought to myself 3 weeks of a holiday with no one? what was i thinking
Maybe i rushed this decision, maybe i should have just stayed back and isolate myself
Least, i would still see familiar faces ..........
Then my mind wandered to Nick.. Bastard i thought, i hate him, i could kill him,
I heard my self and thought, U r way to classy for this, let it go and GROW!!!!
Ok... i said, as much as it hurt, ill try and have fun but how in this state?
I decided i was going to call my best friend Sean, we have been friends for ten years now
That's my conscience right there, Sean tells me as it is i av been thru it all with him.....
He is the definition of *Wounds from a Friend r better than kisses from an Enemy*
I knew he was worried, i had told him about the break up and left without any call......
Hello! hi Sean its me , OMG he said where have you been, U had me all worried,
Freaking out, wondering what you could av done to yourself...........
Typical Sean, i had to stop him Sean, I am ok i had to leave town
I am in Cancun, Are u crazy?? he asked, I chuckled NO i had to get away....
Fine he said,who are u with, where r you staying calm down Sean, jeeez!!!
So we went over the whole ordeal and how i got a ticket for Cancun
I decided to come spend my Vac time here away from everyone trying to see if il break...
I am sorry he said, i wish i cld kill that bastard, i cant believe this is happening again
U deserve better babes, this guys just keep hurting u and i am scared of what its doing to U!
My Sean! he makes me feel like a million bucks, even when i dont feel like a penny
We tease a lot saying maybe we should just hook up, but we know it wld ruin what we had....
So we left it in the sacred hands of our friendship, he cared too much about me,
I did likewise and thats why we have been thru it all to be who and where we are NOW!
I just called to let you know ill be fine Sean, and just want to relax and try and have fun.....
Heard its best to just go all out and have fun in times like this, we both laughed
But he knew me too well to knw my heart was bleeding as his was tearing up for me!
I know u are strong he said and i am sure ull make the best of this trip of urs,
Ill try i said and ill definitely call you when i find a hottie i teased............
Laila he said dont do anything crazy cuz i know you..............
I wont I said, but we both know that was the antidote for my heart right now
Crazy in Cancun..............
To be continued
THE GET AWAY
Finally on the plane, Just get this moving already i thought to myself..........
It was bad enough we got delayed, it was cold in Manhattan......
I just needed to go to somewhere that would help me forget the last 2 days.......
My relationship of a year and half just ended, as my ex walked in and told me
This was not working (our relationship), i just got bored, I am sorry what??.......
Hmm! those words JUST GOT BORED played like a track on repeat in d last 2 days..........
My head seemed like the Chilli Peppers had a concert on the stage in my head......
My eyes were swollen, had my shades on and just wanted to sleep
Maybe not wake up, my world came crashing down when i remembered..........
Just got bored, after a day without giving but taking pleasure from me!
My last year revolved around every breathe he took, it does not even matter.............
I cant be here, i need to leave everything and everyone and heal i guess...........
Took time off work, Vacation time was for 3 weeks and Cancun here i come........
The flight attendant made the necessary announcements and Up in the Air we were.............
Sleep took over.......
Hours later i woke up and we were landed at the airport , lovely weather
The Evening was unfolding and the moon seemed to smile with grace..........
Oh well! i need to get to my hotel room and drink myself to sleep i thought..............
First time here, no friends, family , lonely as a church rat GREAT!!!!
I got the shuttle and arrived at my Hotel, beautiful place ROCHESTER HEIGHTS...........
The lobby was filled with tourists, couples o lord! not now......
The last thing i needed on this trip was lover or anything that had to do with LOVE......
The Grinch just arrived yeah, i could not be happy with all i had been thru in the last 2 days
Oh well the receptionist handed me my Key Card and i looked forward to a bubble bath.....
Room 512, not your everyday kinda suite but all i needed for this vacation..............
The Night was beautiful, my room looked over the Massive pool of the Hotel.....
Not like i would be looking down at the lovers or freaks giving a show........
I was just happy the lights in the pool gave this magical color of AQUA GREEN!!
Ok, I cld not even unpack had a shower, changed and decided to order some food............
Then again i did not av any appetite to eat, alone in my room i never felt this COLD!!!
I cried and for the first time ALONE till i fell asleep.............
To be Continued!!!
It was bad enough we got delayed, it was cold in Manhattan......
I just needed to go to somewhere that would help me forget the last 2 days.......
My relationship of a year and half just ended, as my ex walked in and told me
This was not working (our relationship), i just got bored, I am sorry what??.......
Hmm! those words JUST GOT BORED played like a track on repeat in d last 2 days..........
My head seemed like the Chilli Peppers had a concert on the stage in my head......
My eyes were swollen, had my shades on and just wanted to sleep
Maybe not wake up, my world came crashing down when i remembered..........
Just got bored, after a day without giving but taking pleasure from me!
My last year revolved around every breathe he took, it does not even matter.............
I cant be here, i need to leave everything and everyone and heal i guess...........
Took time off work, Vacation time was for 3 weeks and Cancun here i come........
The flight attendant made the necessary announcements and Up in the Air we were.............
Sleep took over.......
Hours later i woke up and we were landed at the airport , lovely weather
The Evening was unfolding and the moon seemed to smile with grace..........
Oh well! i need to get to my hotel room and drink myself to sleep i thought..............
First time here, no friends, family , lonely as a church rat GREAT!!!!
I got the shuttle and arrived at my Hotel, beautiful place ROCHESTER HEIGHTS...........
The lobby was filled with tourists, couples o lord! not now......
The last thing i needed on this trip was lover or anything that had to do with LOVE......
The Grinch just arrived yeah, i could not be happy with all i had been thru in the last 2 days
Oh well the receptionist handed me my Key Card and i looked forward to a bubble bath.....
Room 512, not your everyday kinda suite but all i needed for this vacation..............
The Night was beautiful, my room looked over the Massive pool of the Hotel.....
Not like i would be looking down at the lovers or freaks giving a show........
I was just happy the lights in the pool gave this magical color of AQUA GREEN!!
Ok, I cld not even unpack had a shower, changed and decided to order some food............
Then again i did not av any appetite to eat, alone in my room i never felt this COLD!!!
I cried and for the first time ALONE till i fell asleep.............
To be Continued!!!
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